Breaking Point [Jyn]

I sigh softly as I step out of the shower, my mind a flurry of scattered conversations. I groan. I had taken the shower to help ease my mind. Damn Ojii-san. Maybe I should have just not answered the door today. I shake my head. No point in beating myself up over it now. I wring out the excess water from my hair then pluck my towel off the counter, wrapping it around me easily. I swipe my hand along the fogged mirror and look at myself. More of the red is fading. I'm debating on whether or not to re-dye it. I don't think I will. But I may go to the local salon and get the highlights touched up in red.

I then examine my nails. I need a manicure, perhaps even spoil myself with a pedicure. I have money from working at Moonbucks. I sigh again. Still...I shouldn't spend my money like that. It's rude to Jyn who is putting up with me being here. I hear a 'Meow' from outside the bathroom. Jyn must be home or Little Ghost is asking for food. I roll my eyes and walk out of the bathroom, clad only in a towel and honestly not caring about the fact I am naked beneath it.

"Ghost-chibi..What's wrong?" I say as I step out of the bedroom and into the living room.

I brighten the moment I see Jyn. "Welcome home," I say with a smile and Little Ghost walks over to curl around my legs and mew. "Okay. Okay. Dinner for you. You are going to get fat," I say to him and move to the kitchen, wishing I could go over and kiss Jyn instead of just saying welcome home. But I'm giving him distance. I don't want to ruin what is between us by doing something he doesn't want. Hell..He might have a woman out there and I don't know about it. I push out that thought quickly. It had nearly made me ill. Ghost follows me and sits in his normal spot as I pull out a can of his favorite cat food. I tuck the towel in place and open the can, bending over to knock the food into his bowl. He dives in and I laugh softly. I then set the can in the sink to be washed out and then recycled.

I walk back out and look at Jyn, smiling. "I rented a movie for us to watch after dinner. Did you wanna order pizza?"

He seems to be in a better mood. It makes me feel better. I real have found a good guy. I mean most men would have made a lude comment about the towel and the like. But he was quiet and said nothing about it. Though I have to say I am a bit disappointed he didn't look at me more. Kami I wanted him. My hand was only going to satisfy my body for so long. I'm young still, dammit! I have needs! Doesn't he? Or is he not attracted to me anymore? Wow..That depressed me completely.

I smile though as he says he will order pizza. I follow him and peer at him as he hangs up his holsters. I wonder if he will ever touch me intimately again. Damn..I must be sexually repressed. "Just cheese and bacon," I say to him, leaning against the doorframe of the bedroom. I want him. But dammit if I have that whole moral issue where I won't throw myself at a man like a slut. Dammit all to hell. I look to the side, but remain as I am.

He pulls out his cell and orders the pizza through the automated system you can get for some places in the area. Gotta love technology. I should get dressed, but I can't just drop my towel right in front of him. That would be rude. I wanna beat my head against the door frame in frustration. Dammit Jyn..Look what you do to me when I think about you too much. I blink myself back to reality when he speaks again and I nod, not trusting myself to speak at the moment thanks to my sexual frustration with the man before me.

He is then walking over and I blink in surprise as he reaches out, nearly pulling back because I'm so surprised. My eyes flick up to his face, widening as he talks about my hair. My lips are dry and my heart his fluttering wildly. I lick my lips and look forward, trying to calm myself.

"The dye is washing out..I didn't like the sudden change in color in all realty. But it was worth a try. I'm..Gonna keep the highlights though.." I finally manage to say and I peek up at him, wondering if he has truly lost all interest in me. I know we said we had to start from the beginning to build up trust and such again..But damn it to hell I want him. I know what he can do and my body aches for it again. But my heart...It would break if he rejects me. "Jyn?" I then bite my lower lip and shake my head just a bit. "No..Never mind.." I whisper, unable to look at him.

He does not move away. No. He draws closer, sliding his cheek along my own. My heart is hammering in my chest and I clutch my towel a bit tighter. I am vunerable and naked. I want him so bad it hurts. He is a man who has never looked at me like I was Kyro Shiori. No..He has only seen me as Shiori..An ass kicking girlfriend who loves coffee.

Jyn..No..Please don't do this. I plead in my mind as he presses his clothed form to mine, my fingers trembling as I hold the towel in place. His voice is like sin to my senses and I have to scramble to gather a thought. What should I say? I don't want to push him into something and then have him not touch me again. But dammit! I only have so much fucking will power.

"I want you, Jyn," I whisper, my voice trembling. "Please...Please touch me.." I beg, my voice catching a bit as I wait for him to pull away and not do a thing. I close my eyes, afraid I may have just overstepped myself with him.

I cannot stop a soft moan from escaping my lips as his lips touch my neck. It has always been weak point of mine. My body cries in relief as he pulls me against him. My hands lift and I wrap my arms around him, clinging to him. Jii-san's words come slamming back into my mind. I could hae lost Jyn. I could have lost him and he would have never known just how muchhe means to me. I'm willing to renounce my own name just to be with him. I don't care about money or living the high life. All I care about is someone seeing me for me and loving me all the same. I have my faults. I can be a bitch, I'm not a very good cook, I suck at being a housewife in general, but damn if I don't know how to make a kick ass cup of coffee.

There is so much I want to say to him. I want him to know I won't leave again if he asks me to stay with him. But then the promise Jii-san rears its ugly head. How will Jyn react to me fight on that kind of level, even if I've been hunting demons for years now. I finally push the thoughts from my head and just enjoy this moment of being in his arms again.

I can feel his arousal pressed against my hip and I smile. Gently I ground my body against his. "Jyn.." I whisper as I lean back in his arms so I can peer at his face. My towel is only being held up by our bodies now. Gently I nudge my nose against his. "If you want me..Have me..But..I won't force you, babe.." I whisper against his lips.

I want to tell him I love him. But I'm afraid of scaring him off with those words. Didn't most men run when a girl confessed out of the blue. That's how it always happened on tv. But then I've never had alot of luck with guys. Back in High School and at the University most guys were afraid of me or I would make them afraid if I found out they were after me for my money. But Jyn.. He has always just wanted to get to know who I am, my name not needed. Its what I cherish about him. He is the only man I want. The only one I need.

I wait for him to answer and his answer has me whimpering and returning the kiss. My eyes flutter shut and I tangle my hands into his hair as I show him just how much I wanted him, kissing him with passion. My back hits the door frame and I yelp into the kiss as he rips the towel away and the cooler air of the room slaps at me. But then it doesn't matter because his hands are on me, making my flesh heat as my blood begins to race through my veins.

Without a hint of hesitation I show my flexibility by lifting my legs and wrapping them around his waist as he presses me against the doorframe. I break the kiss and nip his lip playfully. "Jyn.." I breath out heatedly and kiss him again, one of my hands leaving his hair to grab one of his hands and guide it to my breast, begging him through my actions to touch me like he use to.

This ain't for the kiddies anymore...

Spoiler:

I giggle a bit as he answers me in a sheepish manner. I then blink at the knock and tilt my head in confusion. Then I remember. The pizza! Well thank kami they didn't cock block or I would be shoving Jigoku up the delivery boy's ass. I smile as Jyn asks me to wait on the bed for him. I nod and let him pull away. I head back into the bedroom, heading right for the bathroom.

I take a moment to clean up and grab a t-shirt. I pull it on, the bottom reaching just above my knees. I move over to the door and pick up the towel. It bothered me that it was on the floor. I walk back to the bathroom and hang it up. After that is done I yawn and hop onto the bed and turn on the tv, perking as my favorite anime plays.

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